Where I Stand

Some of you who read this are local while some are not. Regardless, you may or not be aware that yesterday morning at South Knoxville I responded to the invitation. Below is the statement I wrote that was read to the congregation. I'm posting it hear for several reasons.

For starters if you're reading this and we know each other I'm sure we care for each other. I think then that it's right for you to know what's going on in my life. It's also my hope that you might pray for me. I was surprised, amazed and humbled yesterday at how many people came up to Lisa and I, hugged us and said they looked up to me. I want and need to keep that in mind. Though I'm more ashamed of my recent behavior than anything I've previously done, I've already found the healing from it to truly be cleansing. Also, I hope it may serve as an inspiration to others who are struggling with sin. If after reading what was read yesterday you have questions, feel free to contact me. I'll be glad to answer your questions.

Here is the statement:

I have sinned. Over the past couple of weeks I've been engaging in behavior that is wrong and repulsive. I hurt and embarrassed myself, my Savior, you, those that look up to me and my family; particularly my wife. I'm sorry I let you down. Doing wrong is bad enough. Knowing it's wrong when you do it just adds to your shame and guilt. I've learned "I'm sorry" and "thank you" can be wholly inadequate but I say them to you. Knowing as fact that Jesus' blood continues to cleanse us is important but realizing how deeply you yourself need that cleansing is sometimes an overwhelming thought - as I feel now.

Please pray for me. Please pray for my wife. Please pray for my family. Please forgive me. As Lisa reminded me this morning, we can't let the sins of our past define who we are (and I won't) and when we are at our lowest, that's when His strength shines through (and it is). I have been reminded over the past few days how richly I have been blessed, far beyond what I deserve. I plan to acknowledge those blessings every day I have to live.